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  • What Works in Web Design: Good Site, Bad Site

    July 14th, 2020

    In today’s world, a website can make or break a brand. People are becoming increasingly impatient with confusing or badly-formatted websites. According to user experience researcher Jakob Nielson, the average internet user will stay on a page for only 10-20 seconds unless they are given a clear reason to stay within that time.

    Image courtesy of Nielson Norman Group

    Nielson suspected that this brief 10-second window of a person deciding to stay or leave is “because users are extremely skeptical, having suffered countless poorly designed web pages in the past.”

    So what constitutes poor design, and how can we avoid it?

    Vitaly Freidman of Smashing Magazine answers this question in his article “10 Principles Of Good Website Design”. His most vital point is #1: “Don’t Make Users Think”. If a user does not understand what they are supposed to do, they will quickly lose patience and go to the hundreds of alternative websites that are more clear and straightforward.

    To illustrate how web designers can avoid bad design, I re-visited some pages I came across when looking for a company to print t-shirts for my family’s farm.

    The Bad

    An example of a site that is not straightforward at all is from 4royaltees.com, a local print shop.

    Let me outline a few things that caused me to think point my arrival to this website:

    1. Unclear Product Page. If I wanted to order a shirt, there looks to be four buttons that I have to press from the menu, along with three duplicates along the bottom. A way to fix this could be to create a single page called “Create a Product” where you would go through each competent section by section (pick your brand, then pick your product, then design your product, then check out) in a single page rather than four separate ones.
    2. Too Many Words! The top banner alone is way too much to look at. I already assume that they would print all of the apparel and products listed with the simple phrase “custom screen printing, embroidery, and promotional products”. Additionally, the information boxes near the bottom of the page could do with some photos to that it is not just a repeat of the menu above, especially since it is a page of text that leads to another page of text.
    3. Under-Utilized Home Page. This page does not offer any information on its own and requires the user to click on a link to reach anything of importance. One of the most important factors of user-centered design is to cut out as many asks from the user as possible. This welcome page doesn’t even have the full welcome – I have to click through to reach it!
    This page has a decent description, but has odd formatting and links that lead to either broken or more confusing sites.
    Interestingly, a much better page is accessed by clicking a brand on the “Brands” tab, then clicking the logo in the top left.

    One thing that they did well was to have the contact information in an easy-to-access spot. In an article by Ron Dod he points out that one of the biggest web design failures it to keep your contact info out of reach. While I did give up on the website, he at least made it easy for me to reach out the old-fashioned way.

    Another big web design failure that Ron Dod points out, though, is having “a non-mobile friendly website”. It is important to be able to reach a mobile audience given that almost every adult in the US uses their smartphones and tablets just as often as their desktop computer. Unfortunately, I would go as far as to say that this website is mobile-hostile.

    I mean… it works?

    The Good

    Now here is an example of a well-designed web page for another printing company, royal-tees.com.

    Upon my arrival to this website, all of my issues were fixed:

    1. Clear Product Page. I knew exactly what I had to click to get the information I needed. Even though the links just lead to a page with some information, photos, and contact information it is still extremely straightforward.
    2. Just the Right Amount of Words. With only 14 words on this page I have a better idea of the business in a significantly shorter amount of time. The use of a menu where you click to reveal photos of each process is beautiful to look at and a welcome break from the wall of text that was the last web page.
    3. Well-Utilized Home Page. Along with the stunning photos, if you scroll down they include the about, list of brands, and contact information, something that took the other site four additional pages to reach.
    After a quote button and a brief explanation of the product, there is a grid of photos showcasing their work.

    Their mobile website runs just as well and looks just as good as the desktop version.

    In summary, there are five main takeaways that web designers can take away from these two websites:

    • Simplicity: In my view, the most important principle that made the good website so much better was the amount (or, rather, lack of) of information displayed on the first page. As Freidman says in his list of principles, “the higher is the cognitive load and the less intuitive is the navigation, the more willing are users to leave the web-site and search for alternatives,” and I did just that.
    • Clear Visual Design: Going hand-in-hand with the simplicity of information, having a visual hierarchy that points users in the right directions adds to the clarity web designers should strive for. In a HubSpot article by Erik Devaney he argues that using elements that draw users in to the desired action is highly effective. Looking at the good tee website, the “Request a Quote” button is a bright red that immediately requests the user’s attention.
    • Value Proposition: In his research, Nielson concluded that a value proposition must be presented in 10 seconds for a user to stay on a web page. With the first page I was so overwhelmed that I couldn’t even figure out which page to go to see the products and get a quote since there were so many to choose from. On the second page it took a matter of seconds for me to scroll down and see the quality of the products in photos and click through to request a quote right away.
    • Attractive Imagery: The visuals of the second page not only gave me information about the products I was looking to order, but it was simply pleasing to the senses. In Sujay Pawar’s article “8 Principles of Good Website Design” he lists Visuals and Color Platte as a vital part of web design. The deep colors and consistent red, black, and white color palette added to a sense of consistency and credibility.
    • Accessibility: The first website had long loading times and was full of outdated and broken links. In addition to that, the first website was not mobile-friendly at all, while the second worked exactly as expected on my phone.

    By implementing the successful elements and knowing exactly what bad web design looks like, we can create sites that can hold a user’s attention and boost our brand’s image.

  • Extreme Makeover: WordPress Blog Edition

    July 14th, 2020

    Let me start with a quick preface: my blog was bad. It was difficult to navigate, hard to understand, and frankly – just boring to look at. I spent several hours diving into the WordPress customization tool to give my blog a much-needed makeover.

    Home Page

    Let’s stat by looking at the before.

    So boring!

    While I am all for minimalist design, this is a little overboard. When I first go to my site, all I am greeted with is my name and the title “Masters Blog”, then my blog posts starting with the most recent. First of all, no one knows who I am – there is no photo of me and no bio to be found. Second of all, who wants to read a blog called “Masters Blog”?

    This needed a big overhaul. Here is what I came up with:

    In the header I address those two issues – people now have an idea of who is speaking to them through the writing and the subtitle changed to give a bit of a better idea about what is going on here. There is also a background photo (while it will no doubt change when I get the chance to do a photo shoot) which makes this much more compelling to look at.

    Below that is a quick introduction to the blog, some recent posts, an “about me” and a contact footer. And just like that a simple blog feed turned into a multi-page website.

    There where some hiccups along the way, like having a logo and a duplicate header image – but it is all a part of the process!

    The before and after is just a drastic on the mobile version. All of the information a reader could need is right at the top of the page and it has a lot more character.

    Blog Feed

    One of the most important aspects that needed improvement was the navigation from post to post. To do this figure out how to properly use categories to add them to the menu. This article by AF Themes gave me the roadblocks for me to start organizing my posts. This unfortunately required me to go back and edit each one, but was far worth it for the organization that exists now.

    A lot changed over the process of customizing my menus and categories.

    This final menu is on the sidebar of every page. While it is not very fancy, it is straightforward and does the job.

    Author Bio

    One of the other elements that needed improvement was the bio at the end of every post. Or rather, it needed to be added so that people could know who wrote the post.

    Before my renovation, all there was at the end of a post was my WordPress handle. I decided to spruce it up by adding a my photo and a bio.

    Then I realized that maybe it is a little much. Too much information is almost as bad as not enough – I know that I wouldn’t bother reading that monster of a paragraph after already reading an entire blog post.

    Much better.

    A Work in Progress

    While a lot has changed, there is so much further to go. As I learn more about HTML, CSS, and proper Web Layout I will improve the look and effectiveness of my blog.

  • Fern’s Meadow Social Media Final Pitch

    July 3rd, 2020

    In this presentation I explain the social media strategy that Fern’s Meadow will undertake to achieve the goal of increasing engagement and brand awareness. This includes a social media audit, branding and audience engagement plans, the identification of SMART goals, the voice of the brand, sample posts, and key metrics that will be tracked.

    Watch the presentation here or download the slides below.
    ferns-meadow-finalDownload
  • Fern’s Meadow Community Guidelines & FAQ

    June 29th, 2020

    Community Guidelines

    Fern’s Meadow is a small family hobby farm and we strive to share our family’s love for local produce, home cooking, and (of course) animals through our social media channels. We view many of our close friends and biggest fans as a part of the Fern’s Meadow family and are overjoyed when the community engages with us and each other.

    That said, we would like to set a few guidelines for this community to ensure that our page stays in line with our family and farm’s values:

    1. Please do not post offensive or vulgar material via comments, posts, photos, ect.
    2. Please be respectful of other members of the Fern’s Meadow community.
    3. Please stay positive – we are all here to have fun and enjoy the loveliness that home-grown produce and farm animals add to our lives, so let’s stay focused on the good in life!

    We have yet to come into these issues, but if any of these rules are violated we reserve the right to delete comments or even ban users if there are multiple offenses.

    We welcome posts and reviews about your experience with us, as well as comments on what you think about our posts and products. We are sincerely interested in what you have to add, so please share any input you may have.

    Every once and awhile we may post an advertisement for our artisan goods or local produce – all of the above apply to those as well. We hope that you understand that our main goal is to share fresh produce and quality products with as many people as we can, and sponsored content is an excellent way to achieve that.

    Thank you so much for being a part of this community, and feel free to contact us with any questions or concerns!

    – The Fern’s Meadow Crew

    Frequently Asked Questions

    You say you are a small family farm, but how small are you?

    We are made up of the Richardson family – Dennis (originally from Arkansas), Kristen (originally from Nebraska) and their three daughters Emma, Maggie, and Kate. In 2016 we moved to a 6.5 acre plot of land in Meriden, CT where we upgraded our small garden and chicken coop to a substantial garden, two beehives, more chickens, ducks, and of course our wonderful Nigerian Dwarf Goats.

    How many goats do you have? Can you tell me more about them?

    We have 5 mama goats and 6 kids. Learn more about them here: https://fernsmeadow.com/nigerian-dwarf-goats

    Where can I buy your produce?

    We will be at farmer’s markets across central CT once they open up, but for now we are open for pick up. For more info on the produce that is currently available send us a message with your email so we can add you to the email list: https://fernsmeadow.com/contact-us

    What kind of artisan products do you make? Where can I get them?

    Fern’s Meadow makes handcrafted goat’s milk soap, beeswax balm, CBD infused beeswax balm, lavender saches, and catnip saches. You can either order them from our website (https://fernsmeadow.com/shop) or pick them up at Farmer Joe’s Gardens or Beaumont Farm (both located in Wallingford).

    Can I come visit your farm?

    While we have yet to set up formal visitations, feel free to contact us if you would like to visit. We hope to plan small events in the future so people can see what we’ve been up to, but for now you will have to catch us at the farmer’s markets. You can also visit us if you schedule a pick up!

    Do you have any recipes that use the things you grow in the garden?

    We have many that we have crafted over the years and we hope to share them with you over the Summer via our social media and blogs. Stay tuned!

    Do you sell your honey? What about your eggs?

    Both our honey and eggs are in high demand and we have somewhat of a short supply. Before we go to the farmer’s markets we will post what will be available that day on Facebook. Also, if you join our email list you can come almost anytime in the week to pick up what is available!

    Do you have goats for sale?

    Every year we breed our Nigerian Dwarfs to sell for milking does, show goats, or wethers (neutered males who make wonderful pets). We currently have 4 does and 1 male for sale. For more information, call us at (203) 889-6248.

    Do you sell plants?

    This year we are not selling any plants, but we suggest you visit Beaumont Farm or Farmer Joe’s Gardens in Wallingford – and while you are there, check out our artisan goods!

    Why should I buy local?

    There are too many reasons to say in a simple FAQ, but here is an article that may help you understand the impact you can make by supporting local businesses: https://www.onegreenplanet.org/lifestyle/reasons-to-buy-local/

  • Fern’s Meadow Personas

    June 22nd, 2020

    Below is the Power Point that breaks down two personas and their micro-moments for the Fern’s Meadow social strategy.

    ferne28099s-meadow-personas-1Download
  • Fern’s Meadow Social Media Content Calendar June 14-June 21

    June 12th, 2020
    ferns-meadow-social-media-content-calendar-june-14-june-21Download

    Here is the social media content plan for the upcoming week. The majority of the Facebook posts will be slightly altered and be posted on Instagram as well.

  • Fern’s Meadow Social Plan

    June 6th, 2020

    This social plan is based off Parts 7 and 8 of the textbook Social Media Strategy: Marketing, Advertising, and Public Relations in the Consumer Revolution.

  • The Social Media Space, Space, and Journalism

    May 30th, 2020

    SpaceX partnered with NASA to send two astronauts to the space station on May 27th, 202. There were four main events within this SpaceX Launch that news sites covered on social media. First was the hype about the announcement of the upcoming launch date at the beginning of the week.

    On May 27, @AstroBehnken & @Astro_Doug will ride atop this @SpaceX rocket to the @Space_Station, marking the first time humans have launched from U.S. soil since 2011.

    Weather is 40% go for launch at 4:33 p.m. ET and live coverage begins at 12:15 p.m. ET: https://t.co/d1YYeACVXw pic.twitter.com/txhoP4Ay6a

    — NASA's Kennedy Space Center (@NASAKennedy) May 24, 2020

    Falcon 9 and Crew Dragon will lift off from Launch Complex 39A – the same place Saturn V launched humanity to the Moon and from where the first and final Space Shuttle missions lifted off pic.twitter.com/wOSsbCRqi7

    — SpaceX (@SpaceX) May 25, 2020
    This article had 840 shares on Facebook.

    1961: First human in space
    1969: First human on the moon
    2000: First human long-term stay aboard the ISS
    2020: First SpaceX flight with humans on-board

    Tomorrow (May 27) a new chapter of human space exploration begins.

    Good Luck and Godspeed to @elonmusk, @SpaceX & @NASA teams.

    — Lex Fridman (@lexfridman) May 26, 2020

    The SpaceX Crew Dragon capsule will be the first private spacecraft to take NASA astronauts to orbit. Check out this tour Elon Musk gave me in 2014 when it was just a baby Dragon! #allgrownup #Demo2 pic.twitter.com/49zQgxHHgt

    — Rachael Joy Nail (@Rachael_Joy) May 26, 2020

    Have any questions about tomorrow's #SpaceX launch? Science writer @nadiamdrake is on the ground with the latest on the Demo-2 mission! Reply below and stay tuned for her answers beginning at 5pm ET https://t.co/LznPghXAOk

    — National Geographic (@NatGeo) May 26, 2020

    "This is a dream come true, I think for me, and everyone at @SpaceX." @ElonMusk is ready to #LaunchAmerica: pic.twitter.com/xgScFca9eY

    — NASA (@NASA) May 27, 2020

    The social media response was mostly positive and the most popular articles were credible and factual. Then on May 27th the launch was postponed due to bad weather conditions.

    https://www.bbc.com/news/science-environment-52809664?at_custom1=%5Bpost+type%5D&at_custom2=facebook_page&at_campaign=64&at_custom4=86B7397A-A059-11EA-966E-EAD2C28169F1&at_medium=custom7&at_custom3=BBC+News&fbclid=IwAR1NJZHvcrv_1Vck1ZnhMsA40cBSs3grXyE-3KvTmTw-_CAfpxuMIsyF_vQ

    This is when political posts began to appear, something that was not common beforehand.

    “Trump is bad luck,” a SpaceX employee told a reporter. #PatriotsWearAMask

    — Scott Dworkin (@funder) May 28, 2020
    Scott Dworkin is the co-founder of the Democratic Coalition. There is no source to this quote.

    The next day, people began to poke fun at the situation as they prepared for the new date.

    Historic SpaceX Launch Postponed https://t.co/6JwUJq8G6H #WhatDoYouThink? pic.twitter.com/lGROxGFiLo

    — The Onion (@TheOnion) May 28, 2020
    Just so you know, The Onion is a parody site – self-admitted fake news.
    https://www.mirror.co.uk/science/spacex-nasa-launch-how-see-22098898?utm_source=facebook.com&utm_medium=social&utm_campaign=mirror_main&fbclid=IwAR3LM8FS3o4XUSaIPhmN6EiDq91g-1uEZaU4zaVotB3nyblwlTOKcdcXdso
    https://www.space.com/astronaut-bob-behnken-model-rocket-spacex-demo-2.html?fbclid=IwAR3tfPiqxocvjsyyP4gFNzrcqh1jXxjogroPvkgQ62aoZqXPEtcF7ODszy8

    Then on Friday, May 29 a SpaceX prototype rocket exploded at a Texas launch space. Even though the rocket was a completely different model than the one going to space the next day, the timing was just right to make people alarmed about the safety of the astronauts and brought up political issues with SpaceX.

    https://twitter.com/Matt_Read_NZ/status/1266470378961920000?s=20
    Just a note – the user who retweeted this makes mostly political tweets. Of the 33 that I read (all from Friday or the day before) only 2 were neutral or positive.
    https://twitter.com/kkschiller/status/1266514912743915520?s=20
    This article’s only source is a quote from a local and the author’s name and profile are of a fictional character.

    There were still some credible journalists who approached the situation with only facts.

    A Starship prototype just exploded in Boca Chica, Texas during static fire testing. SpaceX was granted an FAA license yesterday to conduct suborbital flights, not sure when those first test flights will happen. Video/live feed from @NASASpaceflight pic.twitter.com/dqnQv1lqBV

    — Joey Roulette (@joroulette) May 29, 2020
    An article written by Roulette, a long-time space journalist, can be found here: https://www.reuters.com/article/us-space-exploration-spacex-explosion/prototype-of-new-spacex-rocket-starship-explodes-on-texas-test-pad-idUSKBN235319

    SpaceX Starship prototype explodes after engine test firing in Texas https://t.co/vgdGVecvnz

    — CBS News (@CBSNews) May 29, 2020

    There were also many articles being circulated on Facebook. One thing to note is that by far the most shared article was one from TMZ which was published only 34 minutes after the explosion. The rest of the articles that followed were much less popular even when the page had more followers.

    The explosion occurred at 1:49 PM on May 29, 2020. The numbers were gathered via Facebook at 4 PM on May 30, 2020.

    This phenomenon is something that is not new to social media – journalists are forced to act fast or miss out on a huge opportunity. In Ryan Morris’ case study on breaking news in social media he found that a similar article from two sources with a following about equal to each other had a difference of 360 vs 197 shares just because one posted nine minutes earlier. The next big news outlet to cover the explosion after TMZ was Business Insider, and even though they have 2 million more followers on Facebook, they had 8,900 less shares.

    The Business Insider article was through, factual, and clear while the TMZ article itself had no mention of sources and was mostly speculation. It also had a misleading title that would lead people who only read the headline to believe the rocket that exploded could be the one that was supposed to carry the astronauts to the space station on Saturday – there is no clarification in the article for those who are not well-informed about the launch that it is a different rocket. This especially troubling since according to Nicole Martin’s article “How Social Media Has Changed How We Consume News” the average read time of online content is 15 seconds. Meanwhile, Business Insider laid out all of the facts right at the top of their article in a quick and easy-to-read format which can easily be understood in 15 seconds. Still, the TMZ article was first and therefore the most shared.

    Finally on Saturday, May 30th the Crew Dragon successfully launched and the coverage was mostly factual and positive again. The launch was also the only non-political and positive trend on Twitter.

    Liftoff! pic.twitter.com/DRBfdUM7JA

    — SpaceX (@SpaceX) May 30, 2020

    It is interesting to see how when everything was going according to plan the popular articles were considerably more credible than the ones that happened during the chaos of the explosion. When the explosion happened posts were much more opinion-based, emotional, and full of speculation.

    The immediacy of social media can be to blame for the lack of facts and amount of rumors in some of the articles that were posted in response to the explosion. However, social media also had a positive effect on the story by sharing live footage of the launch – an event that many people were excited to tune into.

    Facebook had more posts of information about the launch and where to watch live while Twitter had more posts of people’s reactions to the event. It was also a lot easier to find opinionated and political posts about the launch on Twitter – many were even liked and retweeted quite a bit. It was difficult for me to find those kinds of posts on Facebook since my personal circle does not make posts like that.

    I feel that the best way to learn about the launch is to read articles from trusted sources and follow official Twitter accounts like @SpaceX and @NASA for direct real-time information. When it comes to some events that are unexpected like the explosion, it is best to wait for a trusted news site to make an article rather than feed into the immediate rumors and speculation.

    While I am not typically a user of Twitter, it was interesting to follow the event’s updates in real time. However, the moment I opened Twitter for the project I would become distracted by the opinions of people who I frankly do not care about – so in the future if I do decide to use Twitter again I will be sure to follow only those that I want to hear from. I may even use an app like Stay Focused to be sure that I use the site only for what I intend to so that I cannot mindlessly scroll for hours.

    A final takeaway from this case study was how when something goes wrong people news sources are quick to jump onto the story and people are quick to use the failure as a way to spread negativity. Still, it was heartening to see the Tweets made by the majority of people who were excited for the country’s next step in space exploration.

  • Social Media: Bringing Us Together as Long as We Think as Individuals

    May 22nd, 2020

    Historically, media allowed organizations to spread one message to a mass of people without their voice being heard. The only time the individual was able to participate in media was with other individuals via telegrams or telephones. Until recently, it was difficult for people to share their stories others using media and impossible for communities to collate.

    With the emergence of social media, the audience’s role was morphed into an active role of both a consumer and a producer. In Clay Shirky’s TED Talk “How Social Media Can Make History”, he delves into the fact that modern media allows for individuals to convene and support each other as a group. Conversation can now take place between consumers, allowing for information to be transmitted from individual to individual rather than individual (or organization) to a mass of people.

    This conversation has allowed people to create groups to support each other and do good. The #MeToo movement is an instance of people using social media to come together and make a stand against their abusers. This movement began all the way back in 2006 when activist Tarana Burke coined the phrase for use on MySpace as a way to help girls share their stories of being sexually assaulted. The movement did not become popular until 2017 when the actress Ashley Judd was the first to accuse Harvey Weinstein of sexual assault. Since then more and more people began to speak out about their abuse and Weinstein is in prison. The Chicago Tribune has a timeline with a list of articles pertaining to the many cases of justice done to those who have only recently been held accountable for their actions thanks to online communication and support.

    However, there have been many instances of the group mentality affecting people negatively. One of the most debated fads in social media has been the idea of “cancel culture” where hordes of people declare a person is “cancelled” due to something they said or did in the past. While it is important to keep people accountable for their actions, many have argued that “cancel culture” has gone too far.

    Celebrities are often the target for “cancellation”. Unlike the #MeToo movement, though, the things that get these public figures in trouble are things that were done publicly in their past that were typically socially accepted at the time. Celebrities will often lose opportunities or their livelihoods due to the pressure put on their employers to fire them by the people on social media declaring them to be unworthy.

    There are countless instances of this happening, one of which was James Gunn losing his position as the director in the Guardians of the Galaxy series after insensitive and offensive tweets that were meant to be humorous from about ten years ago re-surfaced. Gunn did not deny his past, but was disappointed with how he was punished for it despite being a different person now, saying in a tweet from July 20, 2018, “I used to make a lot of offensive jokes. I don’t anymore. I don’t blame my past self for this, but I like myself more and feel like a more full human being and creator today.”

    https://twitter.com/JamesGunn/status/1020154780012834816?s=20

    Cancel culture has even become a part of teen’s social interactions with each other. One teenager shared her story of being “cancelled” by her peers when she was 15 years old without even knowing why in the New York Times article Tales From the Teenage Cancel Culture. She said that “You can do something stupid when you’re 15, say one thing and 10 years later that shapes how people perceive you. We all do cringey things and make dumb mistakes and whatever. But social media’s existence has brought that into a place where people can take something you did back then and make it who you are now.”

    Another negative effect of the group mindset and discourse that social media has paved the way for is the sharing of political misinformation and distress. In the article The Political Environment on Social Media by Aaron Smith he shares data by the PEW Research Center found that both democrats and republicans see the much of the tone of political discourse on social media as “uniquely angry and disrespectful.” They also found that 37% of social media users are worn out by the amount of political posts and that 59% of the political discourse with opposing party members are stressful and frustrating. On top of that, literally anyone can share their opinion or write an article, as Shirky notes, there are more and more amateurs creating online content and less and less professionals having their voices heard.

    I believe that there is so much potential to do good with the tools that are available to us – especially now when people are forced to be separate, online communities allow us to stay connected with humanity. There are already countless examples of people coming together to take action and make change for the better via social media. However, people should be aware of how groupthink that the potential to negatively shape their views, mood, and actions. As long as people use the internet with caution and understand that very little of what is online is said by professionals, then it is a wonderful tool to enhance our connections with each other and even change the world.

  • Coming From Somewhere

    April 19th, 2020

    Elaine was 12 years old when she had her first hysterical episode. She was in school and her teacher, thankfully, understood what was happening and tried her best to comfort her.

    “I hate my mind,” she said again and again.

     “She just took my face in her hands and said, ‘Elaine, you have a beautiful mind.’ It was good to hear that, but I didn’t believe it.”

    Despite being the top of her class and being involved in as many extracurricular activities as possible, she was still suffering.

    “If I took a whole bunch of aspirin, or Bufferin, or Excedrin, it would calm me down.” She paused. “I didn’t know that I was taking enough to possibly kill myself. It wasn’t my intention at all.”

    Well, I know that I’m coming from somewhere,

    And I know I’ll be going on soon,

    And this life on this planet is coming from the sun,

    From the Spirit beyond the stars and the moon.

    In her early 20’s Elaine felt like everything was spinning. Hopelessness. Despair. It was only making her more anxious knowing that this was only the beginning to what was going to be a very long night.

    “It would be a big spin, to begin with. It would get tighter and tighter and faster and faster and faster, and then I would crash. And I would be out of control. And maybe I would survive.”

    But this time was different. This time it was too much. More than ever before.

    At the time, in 1973, she was living at the Atlanta Lesbian Feminist Alliance. As she tried to leave, her roommates held her back. She screamed, she pushed, and she got through.

    “I realized that I was going to lose it. And that I needed to get out of there.”

    Looking for an open sky,

    Where I can see the messages above,

    Shining through the darkness of the lies,

    That hide us from the Truth of our Love.

    The sky was a menagerie of summer pinks and oranges. It was sunset already?

    She knew that she shouldn’t be out this late in a city like this. But she was going to die if she didn’t escape.

    Then – in the middle of the city –  a clearing. When did this get here?

    It must have been the old subdivisions that were demolished for a highway that would never be built, she guessed. But to her, a blessing.

    In the jungle of half-standing walls and stairs leading to nowhere she began to run. She would run until she died. She didn’t care. It had to happen.

    She ran and she ran, until she passed out.

    Don’t you know that you’re coming from somewhere?

    Don’t you know you’ll be going on soon?

    And this life on this planet is glowing with the sun,

    With the Spirit beyond the stars and the moon.

    When she opened her eyes, there was a tree. The gentle light seeping between the leaves laid gently where the tears had dried. Birds sang to a tune that matched the beauty of the day – the beauty of the world.

    A song came to her that morning, as she lay vulnerable to the world. Though she had written many songs before, none had come to her so easily.

    Two years later, she would be stabbed by a stranger only a block from where that song had come to her.

    Sitting beneath a living tree,

    We’re sitting on the trees of long ago,

    Listening to the voices on the breeze,

    Gently teaching lessons as we grow.

    Listen to Elaine tell her story about “Coming From Somewhere”

    After that attack, she would never run again. But her spirit was far from slowing down.

    At first it was difficult to come to terms with what this meant for the rest of her life. She felt anger and pain that she never thought possible, but she grew to forgive and endure.

    It was because of her disability that she was able to meet the first love of her life, Patti. She had a physical disability that caused her to be wheelchair bound. She had a beautiful smile. She loved Christmas. To Elaine, she was perfect. They lived together for many years in a disabled person’s community.

    In 1999 Patti suffered a complication in a medical procedure. She was happy that she could celebrate Christmas with her love one last time. Elaine was with her when she died.

    So, we know that we’re coming from somewhere,

    And we know that we’re going/yes, we’re leaving soon,

    And the light on this planet is coming from the sun,

    From the Spirit beyond the stars and the moon.

    Elaine met another love a few years later. Katie was a surprise to her, since she seemed so opposite. But their souls were meant for each other.

    In 2014 Katie suffered a heart attack. The feelings of dread that plagued Elaine’s past were beginning to re-emerge, when she remembered the verse:

    There’s a well of water deep inside,

    High upon the mountain of our dreams,

    That catches every tear we’ve ever cried,

    And pours them out again in a cooling stream.

    Katie passed away a few years later. She was with her when she died.

    Elaine’s spirit did not waiver. While she misses Katie, and Patti, and many lost friends over the years, she remains positive and joyful – simply happy to be able to let their influence guide her.

    When we go/do you believe/we go somewhere?

    Well, I know we’ll be going/so, we will know soon,

    When all is said and done/will we rise to join the sun?

    Or will we go beyond the stars/with our Spirit beyond the stars and the moon?

    Elaine looks at the Connecticut Legislative Office Building, a place where she is a frequent visitor, while attending the Clean Slate Bill public hearing with Smart Justice.

    Earlier this year, I was very close to my own breaking point. The expectations that I had set up for myself were soul crushing. I had lost 20 pounds in two months and continued to ignore my health since I simply had to keep going. I had to work because I needed money, I had to do work for free because I needed to build my resume, I had to get prefect grades or I would be a disappointment, I had to keep saying “I’m sorry” when I don’t perform perfectly and “I’m fine” when I clearly wasn’t.

    Then I met Elaine. From the start, she welcomed me with open arms (literally, a much needed hug). She began to tell me her story, and I felt something inside me open – something that I had been trying to push down.

    “I think it’s an all too common experience for many of us to experience, as human beings…it gets ingrained into us and we accept it, and we believe it, and we hold on to it – that we’re just not good enough. That there’s something wrong. That there’s not enough.”

    The colors of the universe are bright,

    Glowing with the knowledge that they bring,

    Music is the chorus of the light,

    Teaching us the song of life we sing.

    Today, anxiety is at an all-time high, especially among millennials. There has been a shift in our society to care more about our appearance than community and meaning of life. We have forgotten to remind ourselves of who we are and what we need as humans. In me, it was so bad that my mental and physical health was put at the bottom of my list of priorities. I had to keep preforming simply because I was afraid of what would happen if I didn’t.

    With Elaine, that is not an issue. Whenever I say sorry, she says “Oh, stop that. Never say that to me.” When I would tell her about all of the things I had on my plate, she looks at me with concern and tells me “Well, okay, but you have to take time for yourself.”

    It has become clear that she sees much of her past self in me. She has made me understand that despite terrible challenges and trials, she survived and thrived. And maybe I can too. Maybe we can all survive.

    “It came out in this song so clearly, that no matter what else happened in my life – and there have been a lot of things… a lot of really difficult things…. painful, traumatic, things that have happened in my life. And yet, this particular song and that experience is something that I can’t ever forget or deny. It shows me, beyond any doubt whatsoever, that I’m here for a reason, I’m here for a purpose, and that love is the most important thing of all.”

    So, yes, I know that we’re coming from somewhere,

    And I know that we’re going/we’re coming/

    we’re going/we’re all leaving soon,

    And our life on this planet/our light on this planet

    is coming from the sun,

    From our Spirit deep inside/an ever-present guide,

    Our Spirit beyond the sun/when all is said and done,

    Our Spirit beyond the stars/deep inside/far beyond the moon.

    Elaine Kolb, “Coming From Somewhere”

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